Времето лети а аз опитвам се да завърша един стих
От мислите затворени във мен
Те седят и до мен на стола
И бягат от думите
Стоят и слушат хората, които ме опрекват
И аз лежа до тях и си мисля за светло-синия океан
И за големи кит , който маха със опашка сред кристаните води
За голямото чудовище, само сред изяществото на природата
За съществото което плува цял живот във самота и е спряло да си почине
До бреговете на някой безлюден остров
Подължавам да оцветявам пъстрите картини, слушайки укорите на „по-земните” от мен
А те се радват на черно-белия си шедьовър
На живота си нарисуван с молиф от сив графит
И смеят се на моя свят
Изтъкан от живот и фантасмагория
Затова започвам живота си наново с „имало едно време едно момиче” , което никой не познавал
Имало едно време една радост, която хвърчи заедно с листата на есен и плува с делфините
Once upon a time there was a girl swimming with the dolphins
Once upon a time there was a girl unknown to all the rest
Once a in an year she was telling fairytales so the sun can fall a sleep
She was dancing in the grass until the flowers bloom
She was singing with her eyes until the moon spreads its light
And all the time looking for the words to reveal her past
Her dreams were immortal, unlike her memory
She recalls.
Unlike her imaginary friends she ignores
Memory seemed best, when lost
World seemed harmless in her nutty mind
Written on her curved smile and distorted face
She looked crazy when not asleep
She looked thoughtful when staring at the empty bottles
But actually she was just staring -not thinking at all
Her friends didn’t think she was crazy, because she had none
soulless mates showed their love by staying with her
Her friends were happy because she was digging a hole
For her dead sparrow
Nature seems to enjoy the buried carcass
Grass seems to blossom in the stinking soil
The girl likes it, when drinking from the muddy spring
The girl likes it when she feels the sharpened beams towards her skin
And she was most happy amongst her normal classmates
They felt almost ill-fated when they were around the girl with the ridiculous smile
The girl with the ailing dreams
But she was overwhelmed by their pity
Why were they sorry for her, when she was the happiest
Oh God! Why do you separate me from everyone you get me close to
And why do you wish to make me hurt for all the things I can’t have.
My extra sociability makes me feel like an outcast…
Oh dear God! How insensitive of you…
But I know… you shouldn’t make me cry cuz the second flood is at hand
Then God you’ll have to think how to save the world .
This sucks huh?!
Please don’t hurt me. Can’t you at least once punish my tormentors?
Promise to make the people believe in you… if do this for me
If not- then I’ll have to say goodbye to my faith
Today unlike the other days I feel very relaxed ... maybe even slack
Almost like a gut….
That’s not bad. Besides the weather today sucks. It’s so dark, so cold.
People are frightened to death of the winter and the streets are alone
I have their faith….have to bear all the people passing through my faceless pavement. I have to bear all of them eroding my surface. For the streets it might be just surface, but
for me is more like interior. And it seems too ruff, that’s why they are wearing shoes.
Oh shit I feel so disgusted by the trash
Rolling furiously over my head…. Braiding in my
Raven tress
And all of these unknown faces impaired
My nameless grace
